Poem: Truth Unveiled

For how long I've been in this fog...
blurrying my sight even from my nose
...the ladies kicked the bucket...
here I am again-all alone-
with no truth or lies to hold
with no reason to be in darkness
but light is gone...fading with the sun in the west
of dellusional thoughts of true friendship
but what is it? what does it mean?
the definition is blank in the dictionary
blank or erased from my definitions...
always that I give a step ahead
people do hurt me-maybe expecting some hurt in return-
I might look hypocrital, manipulator
a tough bitch you want to runaway from
and hate me-please do so!-
after all is what I deserve
to live in this obnoxious world
that does not respect difference
and mocks ideals for the better.
what else can i say?
...the ladies kicked the bucket...
as I strive to be away from this reality
from this fog called friendship
and what is worth now?
with the truth unveiled and the disappointment in my heart.