I had a Dream: My Lover was a Vampire...

His eyes were really dark, empty and somber...seeing him, looking at me with desire make me tremble. At first, I felt fear for I did not know his intentions. Then, he smile...the sweetest smile that change his whole complexion but revealing his long fangs, pure white. I was not afraid, I want him as bad as he want me. I open the window, I let him in. He caresses my cheeks with his cold hands. He softly starts taking off my gown and I was doing the same stripping off his dark royal clothes. Our bodies fall in the bed, gently caressing each other. His entire body was pale and cold, a living dead. I couldn't feel his heart actually beating yet he heard my heart pounding feverishly. I want him. My desire was being possessed by him. He kiss me. A kiss with lust, with fire and passion, with his fangs he cuts the edges of my lips. He stared at my bloody lips. His pupils turns wide. My warm blood was calling him. Nature is going to take place. He licks the edges really sensuous. Then, our bodies merge into one, I was giving him warmth, the one thing he lacked for so many years-who knows for how long?- He grabs my hands tenderly but firm. I move my neck but my eyes still staring his. He kisses my neck, he lick my skin with fervor.
"Be with me. Make love to me.
I am damn by eternity. Let me feel you."
His manly voice echoed all over my body. We made love, I made love to him. For an instance, we both were hot, we both shared the same warmth.
"I want to be with you forever. I do not want to lose you"
I said with the devotion of a plea.
He looks at me sad, giving a little smile as a reply. I obviously understand, the reason that he was here with me was because of my warmth.
"I would love it...but I'm scared, you might hate me afterwards instead of loving me."

A Short Narrative: Luce lost his senses...

Wild and perturbed...Het Licht stood in front of Luce, his words echoing in her body like if nothing existed inside of her. Words clashing every corner of her, surreal..."this most not be real, i'm in a dream...no...in a nightmare"
She look at the sky seeking for strength, she looks at the trees looking for a logical explanation...
Nothing happened. Just more words colliding with my sense, colliding with my pain, colliding with me (the reason that used to bring me balance failed) .
"Am I worthless, Het Licht?"
Why is he asking me this? What is wrong with Luce? How can he be asking me this? After all, he was the one who showed me light in this darkness, at what expense?
"I want to be with you. I want to caress you. I need you."
In what way? We are soulmates but not in flesh...flesh doomed us once and will over and over again. Can't you see? You are making this in wicked sense. I do not owe you my body, and the love i have is the one that i am giving to you. Why the hungry for something that cannot exist? You better than no one know this, Luce. Please...do not dare...
" I prefer being with you one night and lose you forever as a friend"
This words echoed and echoed, clashing every sense left, colliding and strangulating what is left of my hope, what is left of my love, what is left of our treasure...our sacred friendship.
"I'm not going to risk anything...I don't see you with other eyes. There is nothing missing of you...you are my friend."
How can he be asking this from me? I'm not a doll who pleases a master. Nobody own me...and the men that I've been with are no longer beside me...you want to suffer the same fate...you want to be out of my universe, you prefer to be randomly wild in darkness and possess my flesh like a trophy. Luce is no longer here. I've lost Luce by his own selfishness, by his own victimizing character. I can not hold you any longer...not now, by knowing what you want from me, by depicting my being to a night madame that pleases carnal wishes. I may tempteth with my innocent smile the dirty thoughts and desires of your darkest mind.
We split that sour afternoon, from being one big strong soul to two annoyed by their presence one. Sadness, anger, an unwanted melody rings at my ears: there is no happiness anymore, all men seek for one thing-flesh- as for me...my light will shine in another place...my light will seek other paths...crying and hoping for Luce to regret. My heart teared, sobbing for an act of selfishness...for the way that Luce lost his sense.

Poem: To Kill a Guardian Angel

It is so easy
to fall in love with Earth...
envy humans with their sad hopes
yet they will never correspond
to your amazement...
What you seek
is not what you see.
I am Eve's heir
paying a thousand million years sin
"i will never pose my eyes
far away of this mysticism"
I do believe in the material gods of this world...
you believe in one God...
We are so different
I may seem innocent,
I may seem pure
but nothing in this world is away from its corruption
nothing in this world...
Humans let down themselves
how different would be with you?
this world made by your God
is run by chaos...
it is own by men
so stay in your heavens
don't trade your eternity
for a life of men...
you will soon regret this mistake...
you will soon die of deception...
If you love me that much...
spend with me the
minutes and the hours
protecting me...
if you find this obscure...
i will ask you to roam the heavens
for i will kill you
with my sins.

Song: Tu Peor Error by Quinta Estacion

Hace tiempo que comentó con la almohada
que tal vez soy para ti soy una carga,
hace tiempo que ya no le creó nada
y he notado tu sonrisa algo cansada.
Con los días se amontonan los momentos,
que perdimos por tratar de ser sinceros.
Y aunque no me creas, creó que aun te creó.
Y aunque no me quieras, creó que aun te quiero.
Y yo, perdida entre la confusión,
de no saber si sí o si no...
Voy esquivando tus miradas.
Yo, que he sido tu peor error
me quedo con la sensación,
de no tener las cosas claras.
He tocado con la punta de los dedos,
ese cielo que prometes con tus besos.
Como un niño me crei todos tu cuentos,
y aunque tu me entiendas...
Yo ya no te entiendo.
Solo quedan los recuerdos de ese invierno
que pasamos enterrando sentimientos.
Y aunque no me creas, creó que aun te creó.
Y aunque no me quieras, creó que aun te quiero.
Y yo, perdida entre la confusión,
de no saber si sí o si no...
Voy esquivando tus miradas.
Yo, que he sido tu peor error
me quedo con la sensación,
de no tener las cosas claras.
He sido yo, lo amargo de tu voz,
la mala entre nosotros dos
y no pasa nada.
Se apaga la luz,
si busco y no estas tu,
si el tiempo no nos dijo adios,
y todo se acaba...
¡YO!
Yo, perdida entre la confusión,
de no saber si sí o si no...
Voy esquivando tus miradas.
Yo, que he sido tu peor error
me quedo con la sensación,
de no tener las cosas claras.

**Ahora Que Te Vas**

Ahora que te vas
Quiero pensar que estarás bien
Que mi dolor te hizo encontrar un nuevo hogar.
Ahora que te vas
No habrá alegría en mi jardín
Y guardaré aquel mes de enero para ti.
Ahora que te veo marchar
Veo la vida como tú
En blanco y negro soñaré si tú no estas.
Ahora que te vas
Yo te guardo un sentimiento
Porque se que no es correcto
Dejar nuestra vida atrás
Ahora que te vas
Ahora que te veo marchar
Antes debo confesarte
Que has dejado un plato sucio en tu lugar.
Ahora que te vas
No abra completa oscuridad
Y si me olvidas pensaré que no es verdad
Ahora que te veo marchar
Veo la vida como tú
En blanco y negro soñaré si tú no estas.
Ahora que te vas
Yo te guardo un sentimiento
Porque se que no es correcto
Dejar nuestra vida atrás
Ahora que te vas
Ahora que te veo marchar
Antes debo confesarte
Que has dejado un plato sucio en tu lugar.
Ahora que te vas
Quiero que duermas junto a mi
Que nuestra cama cree sueños para mi
Ahora que te vas
Yo te guardo un sentimiento
Porque se que no es correcto
Dejar nuestra vida atrás
Ahora que te vas
Ahora que te veo marchar
Antes debo confesarte
Que has dejado un plato sucio en tu lugar.

Poem: An Act of Courtesy...

Consumed this friendship
-for it will no longer exist-
your page is not set with mine,
your watery eyes
-a bunch of lies-
How dare you degrade me like a ho'?
Like a toy who complies with natural favors.
I will no longer praise
a gentle "man" with a black chariot
rooting for me-hell no! seeking a double interest-
betray me...do it again...be selfish...
be a man...
it takes courage to ask me for a chance
it takes decency to see me as a little sister
for I will not give an act of courtesy
I do not linger
I do not need this-not from you-
to be stabbed where the wound collides
-a secret- keep it hidden!
I cannot be number one-a illusion-
a obsession, perhaps...
I forgive your humanity
but not the offense... I did not decide
for being a burden, I did not oblige you.
Softly, I see, pieces of our friendship
falling into an abyss.
Dark disappointment
an act of selfishness
followed by an asked
act of courtesy.

Poem: Be a Real Friend...

You aim at me
as if I were untrue...
you were never real -not as a true friend-
skipping me like as if I were plague,
I am a hypocrit?
Whenever I tell you truth
you get back at me...with poisonous eyes...
stabbing phrases...
You disrespected me
the loyal friend-you hurted me-
I am at the distant margin
you traced-for the unwanted-
Right now, I don't care...
How more true can I be to you?
How more true can you accept?
Be a real friend by accepting you first,
then accept me-even with the unwanted melody inside me-
Be a real friend,
don't leave me.

Poem: The World of Men

The world of men
diseased and fill of corruption.
Predictable this decay,
if only women had their chance to govern.
The world would be different,
equal, just and fair.
Missiles would be multiply with men
but with women butterflies will fill our streets.
Fainted this disgrace
that color our brains,
tainted with absurdity
this narrow vision will never end
if only women had their chance to govern.
The world would be different,
equal, just and fair.

Poem: Singularity

I am fond of my goals
long-cherish, dreams,
fascinated by this passion.
I behold my steps
towards my dreams.
Fulfillment. Achievement.
I am unstoppable.
I raise barriers
to those who contradicts my goals.
Out of my path-so long!-

Secret: The Poetry Within Me

Poetry is so powerful. I put in concrete paper my feelings eventhough they are not exact; they don't describe the feelings with exactness as I feel them. At least I can plasm those feelings pretty near as I feel it inside.
I get it out of my system, that's how poetry works for me. My mind is chained with feelings. Curiosly, everytime I read the poem I have the same sensation of that gone feeling. It comes back to me, reminding me of its intensity when I wrote it for the very first time.
Beautiful! I love poetry.

Poem: SOLD

You are two faced
take and bring
bring and take-ladybug-
I know your treason.
I am aware of your facade,
you mere bug
This is your doing,
you are not naive,
older than majority
still conforms with childishness.
WAKE UP...
stop doing me wrong.
Faced it!
You are out of the game
and I am zillion of miles away
from a hypocrit friend
like you.

Poem: Long, Long, Long Kiss and Good-Bye

i will kiss you gently
for I will be in the mist
you will not miss me
-but i will-
you will not see me
-but i will-
Time will stop
and this kiss will taste in your lips-forever-
and i will admire it
like everyday I admire the blue-gray sky.
No more portions of me-for you-
no more solitude.
This is Good-bye for us,
let me kiss you-one last time-
closing our eyes, turning into one,
heart beating faster
shaky hands
Good-Bye, my love, Good-Bye!
with bittersweet pain in my heart.
I will miss looking at your eyes
-but you will not-

Poem: Peaceful

You
look so peaceful
when you are asleep
beautiful and dead.
I am ignorant of your dreams,
a fool watching you rest beside me.
Take me to your dreams,
include me in your life
be lovely in the mornings,
sweet in the afternoons,
feverish in the nights.
Open the doors of your chest
and let me in.
Peace I will feel
instead of this eternal wondering.
Fold me with your big hands
and kiss both of my cheeks.
Love me solemnly,
love me truly,
love me peacefully.

Poem: Love in Disguise

Just to feel
a piece of warmth,
I surrender to you
little blind child.
Hold me, Caress Me
make me believe that this is love
eventhough, there's nothing in between
Just lust, just attraction
disguise it! Like you usually do...
Possess my skin, revolt in my deeps
yet there is nothing to feel afraid of
in this fire, I will not burn.
I will not lose.
Love is not here.
It is left on the floor, laughing at us...
Our bodies merge but not our souls,
our bodies consume us-yet you say-
I am making you love...
Struck in my senses!
I am seeking for warmth,
I am seeking for a male
to move me, to make me vibe
when I look to his eyes.
Nothing of this is happening
while my body is taken by the sea of sins...
Sins that will never be forgotten,
sins that will never hurt.
At least, I'm trying to disguise it!
The passion, the lust, the attraction,
the fire, the apple...the love.