Poem: Worthy

(Dedicated to Mariela-Chan)
This poem is a continuation of the other called Worthy.
It was written on February 15, 2007.

I'm so scared when you get close to my heart
that's why I push you far away.
I'm-already damaged- brokenhearted
and wounded by treason...by trust in a friend.
It's scary sometimes feeling joy spreading
from my heart with just a gaze of you.
When we laugh, barriers breaks
and something I have forgotten-grows-
Grows wild and proud,
eventough I want to keep it dormant...
so I could never be hurt ever again
but that's just a fool selfish act of me.
Being by your side- I am at ease-
no matter if you: kicked me, pinch me,
slap me, spank me, bite me, teared my arms,
push me...there's always a smile, there's always
a payback for your mischievous acts!
There are no words to describe
how terrible and nice you made me feel
even if I carry a long face
even if I carry a charade
you possess my truth
and only few are worthy to behold it.